Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Prejudice, and wanting to kill someone

We almost got killed yesterday.

My husband and I along with our driver were heading home after a meeting in Intramuros on a very pretty Monday morning... it was around 11 o'clock, and we were nearing an intersection in one of the inner roads of our village.  The speed limit is 40 kph on these roads, to take care that no one hits anyone else. 

As we near the intersection, on our right, there was a sedan making a left, the driving going like a bat out of hell.  The sedan would have hit us head on, had it not been for our driver's quick reflexes, for which we shall always be grateful.  The oncoming car then slowed, enough for us to see that it was a Korean lady driver who gave us that evil eye, as if to say "what the fuck were you doing???"  Let me state this one more time... she was making a fucking left turn... she didn't fucking slow down (heck she didn't drive slow) as she was preparing to make a turn... didn't fucking turn on her signals... nothing.  She came into the road like some sort of speed demon, without any consideration for oncoming traffic.  Fucking stupid cunt.  Needless to say the three of us were angry, with me spewing the most invectives of all.  I wanted to turn the car right around and ram hers from behind, without a care to the damage that ours would cause.  I wanted to pull her hair.  I wanted to make her bleed.  I wanted to kill her.

Fucking cunt.  That's all I could think about.  Dead fucking cunt... I liked that thought better.

Thankfully I had my temper in check... spewing lava in the car does have its good side... I don't then take it out on my loved ones.  I was going to see my daughter in only seconds following that near accident, so I needed to calm down, and be ready to care for her.

I completely forgot for a few moments that I dated a Korean man, and remembered that his upbringing was such that he turned out to be a good guy.  We didn't click in the end, but still.  He was quite a lovely man, and his wife -- another Korean friend of mine that I worked with -- was herself a lovely and bright spark too.  That one incident immediately colored my perception of all peoples from that country with black.

Fucking cunt.

Fast forward to this evening... I sat in the meat locker known as Meralco, watching a show about how prejudice can destroy the lives of good people, how a few can color the world black for someone else.

Yes, I know that prejudice is wrong... yes, I know that it can be easy to judge a whole entire race based on one person's actions... I know, I know, I already know.  And seeing West Side Story didn't make me know any more.

But I still want to kill her.  Just her.  Not all Korean people... just her.  In case you don't know, I'm really good with a gun.

I'm calming down... and of course I'm not going to make trouble for anyone.  At the end of the day, it isn't worth the effort or the thought.

But... she's still a stupid fucking cunt.

11 comments:

raul montesa said...

Whoa!!! galit na galit si manang... on a lighter note..have a safe flight!!! ingat!!!

Rony Fortich said...

Oh wow. Let it all out! Fire-breathing blogging is an excellent catharsis. Really glad you're okay though. I'll see you tomorrow!


"I wanted to pull her hair"... I know you say it in anger, but that image made me smile a little.

Chari Arespacochaga said...

Take it easy. Have a good day today

Girlie Rodis said...

Haayyy Lea--you are just absolutely top of the line hahahha delightful! Thanks for coming to the run last night. I would never have thought you had a near fatal anything - you were so bright and cheery for all. Particularly for Menchu wo has been needing many hugs...and you gave her some. Let's hunt that Korean lady now!

Chari Arespacochaga said...

Jett has found a phrase!

Earnest :-) said...

grabe. buti na lang magaling ang driver niyo. To think that was already in your neighborhood. They should ban that woman from driving.

Lea Salonga said...

They should ban that woman from living.

carla guevara laforteza said...

calm down.. Ive been to Korea and i have noticed that they have no sense of space.. one thing you can do apaprently.. according to some WSS cast members.. all you need to say to help you calm down is " ..stay away from her American!.." must be said with a hard sing song puerto rican accent! seems to me like an inside joke between the cast.. but i guess it works for them. labo. Have a safe light manang and a fabulous run in China! Hugs to Shiela and Loy! Mwuah!

Julie Reyes said...

Oh my! Coincidentally, a Korean man at the grocery bumped me while I was putting some cans into my cart. I don't think he even noticed that he did. This is not the first time I have experienced this. In our building alone, there are a lot of Koreans who don't know how to hold the elevator when you're rushing to get in. It's like, you're not even there! Maybe they have no sense of space as Carla already mentioned or maybe, they're just completely oblivious to their surroundings. Who knows!

Stay safe mama Lea! =)

agot sandejas said...

Can I just tell you? Chris (Jacob, my sis-in-law) also encountered a very bad accident. INSIDE the village. The driver was NOT korean, but some Pinoy stupid psycho mama's boy who just gave excuses why he bumped their car and then, a stroller with a baby!!! HAY!!! So it's not just Koreans but also psycho mama's boys driving like crazy in the village. Beware!!! On the bright side, I heard from father-in-law that they reduced the number of houses in the village rented by Koreans from 160 to 15. Ergo, there are fewer fucking cunts plying the roads of Ayala Alabang.

Lea Salonga said...

And it had to be that one. Figures... but it IS Jett after all.