Saturday, May 31, 2008

I... am... hormonal.

I wrote the first entry on the plane, and the second one in Los Angeles, many hours after landing.  It's definitely time for me to get some sleep... the past few weeks have had me very tired.

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I need to stop watching CSI.

For some strange reason, on the same day, AXN played a couple of episodes of this popular crime drama whose storylines centered on the accidental death of a small child: one infant and one toddler.

Yeah, both episodes kept me up practically all of last night, so much so that I had to visit Nicole as she slept.  She was in bed, snug as a bug in a rug, so they say… it was probably because I had to leave for LA today, meaning I had to leave her, but I just stayed there, staring at her for a few minutes… watching her peacefully sleep, her rhythmic breathing, the shifting around in bed… I smelled her skin, touched her hair… when I felt satisfied that she was safe and doing just fine, I headed back to my own bed.

I need to stop watching CSI.

Would I be the only mother here who gets attacks of paranoia after seeing stuff like that on TV?  Am I the only one who gets these visions of their kid floating face down in a swimming pool after reading about someone else’s child dying this way?  Am I the only one that gets these flashes of doom when I get an invitation from a friend who happens to have a swimming pool in their backyard, or a dog running around, or a steep staircase?

If nothing else, I can understand why my mother was as protective as she was… she may have gone overboard a little bit, but given that she lost her first child, I can comprehend that she would want to do everything in her power to make sure child #2 and #3 stayed alive and healthy, ready to live another day.

I do want my child to experience getting a few bumps and bruises.  It’s healthy and would only be good for her development into adulthood.  However, how do I figure out the difference between being watchful and being deliriously paranoid?  How do other parents figure out keeping a safety net out for their kids while allowing them to grow and play, without strangling them?  I do try to breathe easy when I travel without my baby, and trust that she’ll be okay without me for a few days… how strange, it was somewhat easier when she was, for the most part, stationary… now that she’s mobile and thus able to get into everything, how can I be assured that she’ll be okay, that when I walk into my house next week, she’ll be there with open arms and a loud “Mommy” for me?

Okay… maybe I need to chill out for a second… maybe I need to relax and get some perspective, and trust that her caretakers will have their eyes out for her… maybe I need some sleep.  One thing’s for sure…

I need to stop watching CSI.

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There are times when I feel monumentally stupid and inadequate…

My daughter recently suffered bouts of allergies, with clusters of hives surfacing all over her body, and we were stumped as to its cause.  My pediatrician thought it was dust mites… so I instructed the yaya to clean her room.  We took out all the larger stuffed animals, changed the sheets and cleaned the air conditioner filter.  My mom came to visit since I was going to be leaving for Los Angeles at the end of the week… she stayed with the baby, and watched her as she was drinking her milk… the hives then appeared right after.  Turns out it was her milk that was giving her allergies.  Not the dairy per se, but the pre- and pro-biotics that were added to it.   F***.

It’s not so much the discovery that irks me, it’s the “if not for me, you wouldn’t have figured it out” speech she delivered.  That stayed with me through my day… I cried under my blanket on the plane.

I know that as a mother I’m going to find myself in “trial-and-error” mode, but I don’t want to feel like this… it’s hard enough already being Mommy without being made to feel like less of one.  I don’t (and won’t) have all the answers… some days it seems as though I’m feeling my way around in the dark, and when light finally shines through, it comes with something I didn’t really need to hear.

Yes, I’m hormonal.  So sue me.

Ugh… I’m tired, jetlagged… I need to sleep for a week, I think.

Oh yeah, the update: we're not giving her that s***** f****** milk brand anymore.  There.

63 comments:

Jamie Marcelo said...

hi lea! pm me naman the brand... just need to know is all. take care!

Riza Montaño said...

Hello. You're a mother and no matter how paranoid most mothers can be (my mother being the most paranoid of course), they say its natural. Nothing can ever beat a mother's love for her child. My mom explained to me why it's so hard to sort of let go of your child especially kapag panganay. That emotional bond is unexplainable. Heck I don't know why I would sometimes get sick when my own mother is sick. I'm the bunso of the family and sometimes I take for granted my mom's "paranoia" over her 2 kids. Back when I was in high school, I really could not understand why my mother is so OA over small things that shouldn't be given that much attention in the first place. She kept saying "you'll understand once you have your own child" and that statement I've slowly understood when I started working, hehehe.

They say that with the first child the trial-and-error stage is crucial because its the "learning-motherhood-the-right-way-stage". My own mom even told me it was easier for her when she had me (second child) because she has already learned her lessons with the first. Hay, typing this makes me realize how much I love my mom. =)

Jocelyn Drapiza said...

You're not alone feeling this way.I stopped watching CSI and Without a Trace for some of the episodes really bothered me esp. when a child was involved.We can only care for so much as a mother but we don't have control on what will happen to them.I remember the first day of my son to school that I was the one that cried and it's the feeling of "letting go" of my only son.Mahirap talaga ang maging ina.Pero,kayang-kaya mo yan with guidance from GOD.Pasensyahan mo na lang ang lola dahil she's just trying to protect little Nicole.God bless ..

Rony Fortich said...

I could never be a parent... too tough a job. Can you imagine when Nicole goes off to college? or *drum roll*... her first date? hehe...

bing ♥ said...

Sustagen Junior w/ Prebiotics? Oooops. :(

Rocky Brown said...

This just breaks my heart.
All I can say is, when I saw you with Nic that day before I left for Honolulu, I remember thinking how terrific you are with her and how being a mom agrees with you.
God bless you and your family.
Get some rest.

jon joven said...

: )

venus dela cruz said...

i can very well relate..as a mom there's this unexplainable feeling u come across with everytime a situation entails kids, babies, children. more so if it's about some creepy or hideous scenarios. it makes you suddenly distrustful of people..things..environment as a whole hay i must admit i hate it when im like that. but don't worry ul get a hang of it soon enough as i believe it comes with the package. and yeah restraining yourself from watching CSI or similar programs may do. and oh..yeah my son's lola is oa as too. but well she's my mom and since am also a first time mom she simply can't trust me at once:( there's even a saying pa nga "mas mahal daw ng lola ang apo, kesa anak..ouch..seems true..but heck..i'd rather think the positive side of the act than not at all kht mnsan tlga haay naku dn nman tlga magmisa hehe. and gez wat after almost six years since i gave birth, i wouldn't imagine myself surviving the mom's department without her:>

venus dela cruz said...

sleep tight mi idolo:> hope u can pm me also the milks brand thanks much!:)

Girlie Rodis said...

I so know what you mean --- but you know it's just the "need to be needed" sometimes rubs it in a little bit more than necessary--- needing to be appreciated as you have gotten on so well of late of being without----sleep tight!

sees pop said...

Hi Lea, glad you hear you arrived safely in LA. It was so nice chatting with you before you left. as far as I can see, you have been such a great mommy to Nicole and whatever fears you have for her are completely normal. I am the same way with both kids. When Jaime went to the States with my mom, I worried every single day: Did he eat properly? Did he take his viatamins that day? Will he remember to look both ways when crossing the street?! I heard this worrying will never stop...as they get older we will worry about different things, like the group of friends our teenagers will hangs around with, or why they would be late coming home from a date, etc. etc. As you know, Sofia is so much of an explorer and loves to keep herself busy, most times disappearing from our room. One time she fell down all 12 steps as she was in a hurry to catch up with my dad who was leaving for work. She had a yaya then. Yesterday, she fell as she was playing in the yard with her cousins and bruised her knee, her first time to have an open wound , and I worried like crazy upon hearing about it. When I got home, she was limping and I got scared she may have had a fracture (paranoid mommy too). Thank God, when she woke up after a nap, she was okay. I am sure Nicole will be fine...with so many watchful eyes around her all the time. Continue to be the best mom you are...and let's save the worries for those first dates she will eventually have...HALA! he, he...

Didang Alvarez said...

Watch Big Bang Theory! :P

arlin dizon said...

maybe your mom just want to be with you more.. it's like saying "let me continue taking care of you and nicole.." in a different way.

Franco L. said...

You are a good Mom Lea!

Michelle S said...

Manang, take a breather, you're doing a great job as a mom! Yup, sometimes THE WAY our mom says things can be so insensitive but we know you are doing the best for Nicole. Your worrying is a normal part of your mommy role. Please get some needed rest...ingats!

Risa Casambros said...

Rest well, Lea. I'm sure it'll be okay after a few days. maybe you're just really tired coz you've been doing a lot of shows lately.
Good thing the allergen was discovered sooner than later.
I'm sure you're a great mom. we all see how proud you are of Nicole and that you want what's best for her.

Yie Yin Foong said...

Dear Lea, I know as a young women so many things are asked of us. We are to be perfect mothers, wives, daughters and sisters. Its hard to rise above and be in the moment. Just enjoy your child at this age. Things happen in life we can't control and we all make mistakes. Nicole seems to be a very strong kid, she will be just fine. Your mom just wanted to help but it seems her words hit you the wrong way. Forgive yourself for not knowing everything. You have years of parenting ahead of you.
I know what you mean about CSI, as a new yorker there is already a level of paranoia but CSI just makes me think of all the horrible things that can happen. I can't watch CSI if I am home alone its to scary.

Rico del Rosario said...

...I wonder what brand.

Anyhow, you have every right to feel what you feel, and you don't need anyone to tell you that.

Chari Arespacochaga said...

TAKE IT EASY..... We all know you are a fantastic mom

K Yamamoto said...

My dear lea, I feel badly that your feelings were hurt...I'm not sure if you were hurt more by your mother's words or by your desire to be the best mother that you can be for your child. We all know that perfection is only an illusion...No one can be the "perfect" mother...the "perfect" daughter, sister, wife, friend...We are simply tasked to do the best job that we can with the gifts that God has given us.

I don't know you nor do I profess to know you...I do wonder about how you manage to carry so much responsibility ...for so long...I'm assuming that you've been the breadwinner for your family since you were very young...not only supporting your immediate family but others who were/are involved in your career (i.e., managers, hairstylists, make-up artists, publicists, etc.)...I wonder if on some days, you just want to run away and hide....or at least, "cry under your blanket." I wouldn't blame you if that were true...I'm sure others wouldn't blame you either as that would make you "human."

I admire you for not only your musical talents but moreso, for your strength of character...for your unselfishness...for your honestly. I thank you for all that you share with so many who love you...

James & Cay Lim said...

HI, Lea...

Totally addicted to CSI, too. It scares me about the outside world, but it also makes me vigilant and alert. I view it like a study of human nature - the worst and the best of it. Makes me better equipped to deal with what's out there to be able to protect my family at all costs. I lock my doors at night and set the alarm and shut my windows and look behind my shoulder at shopping malls because the world is really not that all hunky- dory.

Parents, like your mom, know how to push our buttons. They can say things that hurt the most because they matter. Been there, done that, is their badge of honor which they wear proudly. I just had one episode with my parents just a few hours ago. But we're glad they're there, no matter what. Just grit your teeth, or cry a few under your blanket. Hirap sometimes. We can share more parental jabs next time.

See you in two days. We can always turn to food for solace. Dungeness crabs, here we come!

Julie Reyes said...

I want to give you a big BIG hug, mama Lea! There, there...

Gerard Salonga said...

grabe...I feel like I was there....I can hear her saying it....

Jojo Terencio said...

hi lea... you are a wonderful mom just as your mother was and still is a good protective mom to you :-)
i saw how protective she is with you-- first during the 2006 RPDEV engagement you had at the national museum... and last week at the Forum.
stay cool!... and happy weekend...

Lea Salonga said...

The brand is Pediasure Plus. The normal Pediasure seems to be just fine, but the PLUS variant has probiotics or something that really messed Nicole up. Diego could be fine with whatever you give him.

Also, ask Gerard what Antonio is allergic to... they've had their own troubles with that.

Lea Salonga said...

The brand that messed up Nic is Pediasure Plus.

Lea Salonga said...

Thank you, mama Julie!

ARIEL REONAL said...

I believe you are doing your best as a mother, Manang. Just give yourself a few days rest from your busy sched. I'm sure everything will go back to normal after you've recharged. Take care and God bless.

joy weimer said...

Everything you are going through is found in the term completely Normal. We all feel responsible for everything our child goes through from small aches and pains to those bigger and mores serious illnesses. Especially when we have to leave them - oh the guilt! As long as she knows you will be back..she will be fine:) I think what makes a great parent is when we actually sit down and analyze our kids current conditions and try to alleviate if not protect them from all bad things. IF only.

Jojo Terencio said...

hi lea-- hope you feel a lot better now! glad to catch you online... goodluck on your shows in the US :-) God bless...

marysse villanueva said...

hi lea... this came quite surprising coz i thought you were breastfeeding nicole? you decided to shift to milk formula as she grew? hmmmh, it's strange because since nicole is already 4 yrs old, i was wondering if you have been giving her that milk formula after having been weaned? how come the symptoms appeared quite late? oh well, i hope she is okay now...

Ria O. said...

I had a friend who prided herself for not being afraid of death, or anything else, when she was a single girl. Now that she has a child, she realized that all her fears are related to that child's well-being and safety. She's also now afraid to die and leave her child. So i guess that's really normal for a mother, and maybe the raging hormones amped up that characteristic a bit...

Ako naman when I'm hormonal, everything I watch on TV affects me so much - a commercial with kids happily playing in the rain is enough to make me cry. He he.

Lea Salonga said...

She's fine now, thank you. Nicole is only 2 years old, and I stopped breastfeeding her last year.

analin bantug said...

aww.. big hug manang! xx

Florian Soriano said...

Ms. Lea, will there be a chance for us to know, what brand of milk it is?.....or please pm me the brand......OH...anyway, i hope may repeat pa yung concert, at DVD paaa...
Buti na lang papalabas rin sa ABS, can't wait to see that wonderful performance again....Sana pati sa TFC ipalabas din, para mapanood ng sister at mga cousins ko.....ingat po.

ana abad santos said...

mwahahaha i am a hypochondriac so no surprise...things will get better luv! i have a son so things a bit a different but...still all the same in some ways :) ...just remember your raising them to be great people not great children...:)

Don Brew said...

Hey Lea....Mom's will be Mom's no matter how old you or Nicole get. You are no less of a Mom than your Nanay is, and you probably will unintentionally do similar things with Nicole when she is a Mom. It is normal and natural because no parent is perfect. No human being is perfect. No parent can be with their child 24/7, but we must trust the people that we entrust to take care of them, until there is a valid reason not to trust a person or persons. And no matter how hard we try to protect our child, there are no guarantee's in life. We must only have faith, and hope and pray for them always, and trust that they will be okay. See you next Thursday. Ingat at relax!!! Hugsssssss :-) Don

Rocky Brown said...

Girlie you're so right.

Brad Patterson said...

How really refreshing it is to see a parent who is legitimately concerned with their child's well-being and with being a good parent. I am so used to seeing parents who act like their children are just another piece of luggage they have to drag around with them.

You are not being hormonal at all, IMHO, just perfectly maternal. Nic couldn't ask for a better mom.

Annette Acosta-Dickson said...

Um, it's not the brand of milk you used to advertise for, is it? J/k.

Anyway, you're not alone. I have a 4 year-old daughter and I'm a paranoid mommy. The good news is that it gets better with time.

But I stopped watching the evening news. And whenever I read about somebody's teenager dying from an accident, I'm absolutely horrified.

Just one day at a time, and do our best.

Elodie Russo said...

I can't really understand how do you feel as i'm only 17! Anyway, I can speak for Nic though. I mean, my mum is still like you even though I'm a big girl now (or at least I like to think I am!). Just a little advice (that you probably already know, but it mights make you feel better to hear it from

Abi Simon said...

I second the motion to what Gerard said! :) Pero seriously, we have a pool in the back of the house and when hubby and I were cleaning the pool, Eric was riding his trike, his back wheel went in the pool and I was screaming but frozen as to where I was, he was the closest and was in his cellphone, dropped cell on the ground and just jumped but before that Eric's head was above the water but fully below his nose.. It was the worst time of our lives. Lucky for us that we were by the pool when that happened. The next day we had someone build a fence we don't F@$@#$@$!@$ care if it looks ugly as hell as long as our son is ok. I don't even have the nerve to tell my mom as she is very similar to your mom :P His swimming lessons paid off that even if he wasn't wearing a floatation belt his instinct was to kick... Thank God! Don't worry about your mom, all lola's are very .................... :) but sometimes even reading all those blogs or medical facts and fiction online, it is much better to ask someone who has been in situations like where you and I are at. Like with Eric's scratching, we still can't figure it out not even his allergist who gave him the 60++ prick test (and I can't stand looking at her do it to him I wanted to cry and just grab him away from her!!!) but I observed that he would scratch more if he has long nails... Crazy! Don't worry about it! our mom's definitely did also the trial and error method just like majority of the mom's and lola alike but of course they don't dare tell us that just the proven ones!

Don Brew said...

Brad, I could NOT agree with you more. Well said. Aside from Lea being who she is, she is an incredible Mom when she publicly shows how much she cares about her child. Makes my love her more as a person than as any celebrity. She should be oh so very proud.

Ji Lopez said...

Aahh! HIVES! my daughter had that too when i tried to switch her with a more popular brand of milk formula. I did her harm than good that it made me so nervous i had to take her to emerg . Next, i tried to give her another brand of oatmeal, and whoalah! HIVES again. I thought oatmeal are all the same they just come in different brand... how would i know!

Anyway, i got that "feeling stupid" talk from my in-law. I was respectfull and diplomatic during the sermon and orientation, but afterwards i was like.... HELLO! give me a chance! my child is growing and so am i learning how to be a better mother! Seeing my child sick is so much to bare already and if only i could take it away from her i would. Afterwards, i just tried to take it on a possitive way... she raised my husband and 3 more kids so well that i know i wouldn't be even at par from her, but hey! if i'll have a coach like her along the way, i know my child will grew up as fantastic human being more than me just doing it alone.

Your lucky its from your own mom and don't get upset na with her... at least you're assured she loves her apo so much that she can be so irritatingly knows everything... even if they makes us fell like dummies

Just take it easy... i was told before and still being told by most of mothers i know that first time mom like you and me tend to feel the way we feel right now (being so protective and overly paranoid) thats NORMAL!... when the next one comes, we'll be better.... i hope!

Guy Gustafson said...

As for CSI, yes, stop watching it. Take the lesson that bad things CAN happen to Nicole, and do what you reasonably can to protect bad things from happening. Beyond that, when you can't be with her, leave her in the care of people you trust, and pray that God will keep her in His care, also, and relax knowing that that's all that a good parent possibly can do.

As for Nicole's hives...I'm someone that has suffered hives myself, and I was a little surprised by the suggestion it might be dust mites...I've only gotten hives after consuming something. However, saying the brand name of milk that caused Nicole's problem isn't really fair...things affect people differently...I've eaten food that was also eaten by other people, but I was the only one to get hives. My heart went out to you when I read that you cried under your blanket. No one can know everything about being a parent...I hope that what you get out of your mother's words is not a feeling of inadequacy, but that you'll always need to continue to learn about parenting. And I hope that when you're a grandmother and a similar situation happens with Nicole's child that you'll remember this incident and be a little more understanding about not saying something that may make Nicole feel inadequate, but that she still needs to learn.

You ARE a good mommy...keep looking for ways to be a little better!

Just my opinions, for what they're worth...

Mia BellaMare said...

Speaking of "CSI," I remember this one episode of "Without A Trace," where the poor infant ended up dying--- suffocated by her mom who was breastfeeding her while loaded on pain meds and fell asleep on top of her!

I feel your pain with the tv shows seeping in a little too-too... my obsession with "Lost" has me obsessively reading up on existentialism and other -isms that show touches on!

On the other topic, I honestly think everything is a trial-and-error... even parenting. I'm sure all parents have their own "duh!" moments (I can only imagine how many I would have, if I were ever to spawn), and that's how they learn. Nicole is the cutest little thing, and I cannot see her growing up any other way but splendidly.

Gina Balagon said...

as a mother i can feel what you are feeling right now....in both ways..take care...you are a wonderful mama..and nicole is just so adorable..

sugar dizon said...

Hay naku, ang hangin na naman po dito! Dati Law School, now Philosophy naman. Don't tell me you're now a disciple of Nietzche & Kierkegaard. That you now read Camus or Sartre, Counselor? LOL

Point of order you honor, kaya nga CSI at hindi Without A Trace. Mag kaiba po ang tarbaho ni Horacio, Mac & Gill kay Agent Malone, fyi. hi-hi.

Hmmm, Ism- ism!

P.S.

Manang,

My Boss is sending me to the West Coast for a convention. I'm leaving Manila tonight for SFO. I might catch one of your concerts there or in nearby San Diego. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I could still find tickets when I get there. =>

Lea Salonga said...

Check the ticket outlets... I don't know the status of ticket sales at any of the shows. Good luck!

fil sj said...

My heart goes out to you! :(
You're not alone on feeling inadequate.

Ning Marella said...

hi ms. lea. im a big fan
but cant afford to buy your concert tickets,
kaya dito nalang ako palage sa multiply site mo

my heart goes out to you as well.
i know the feeling when the daughter is sick
at hndi mo masiguro kung anu ang pinagmumulan nun
ganyan talaga ata pag first time mommy

u r always in my prayers
God bless you and and your family

Angela Villa-Real said...

ano yung "s***** f****** "?

Mai Twort said...

Lea is just venting our frustration...

Arlene Teves-Du said...

if going organic (milk) is an option, go for it.
just looking at snipppets of your time with nicole (thru your pics), everyone can see how dedicated you are as a Mom, so don't ever doubt yourself.

Noel Li said...

Dear Lea,

I really admire how you are able to balance life as a singer and life as a mom/wife so well. You make it look easy, yet you are so genuine about the reality of it.

I feel for you about the whole speech-from-mom, and I've come to realize that those kinds of words hurt the most from the people that love you the most. I've had my share of those kinds of tears...It's really hard.

You're doing an awesome job at life, so keep it up. Your presence and occupation bring so much joy and happiness in people's lives, including mine.

- Noel

Mia BellaMare said...

:: sheesh ::
I didn't know mentioning existentialism makes someone "mahangin."
And, actually, Camus IS a favorite...L’Étranger is a regular read (especially because it's short!)... Also... I'm not a judge, so I don't know where this "your honor" business is coming from...
I like obscure political theories and I do read a lot... my mentioning existentialism is the most normal thing in the world--- I'm a goob, and I'm good with that. Next thing you know, even my little ditty of an episode of a show I watched is being called out... Hahahaha :) oh. emmm. gee.

Kay Tolentino said...

Haha! I love your "hormonal" blogs.

Every loving mother--and even devoted siblings/babysitters--picture how terrifying it'd be if their kids were to get seriously hurt.

P.S. If you wanna quit your CSI addiction, i recommend season 3 of 24. ;)

Cathy Xavier said...

May I know the milk brand? I'm a struggling paranoid trying-to-do-everything-the-best-way-I-can mommy so I can totally relate. I know my mom means well but it doesn't help my ego sometimes..but I get over it till the next lecture :) take care

sugar dizon said...

Hey you and other posers here, pls dnt put Lea on the spot. FYI, not all humans are created equal when it comes to allergies. So, kung nagka- allergy si Nicole sa 1 brand ng gatas, it doesn't ,mean that you or your baby will react the same way, gets nyo?

Emma & Steve said...

Maybe being tired made your perspective worse, but for me personally, I cannot stand watching any show that shows kids getting hurt anymore. I just walk away or change channels. You don't need to torture yourself; I think most moms have the same fear of having their precious ones get hurt. Like what they said at the hospital before I gave birth: "Welcome to a lifetime of worries!"

As a first time mom (like I am), you also find yourself getting 'expert' advise on child-rearing even when you do not need it (coming from even the most well-meaning people); just take a deep sigh and know that you are not the only one...

Some days will be better....

Roma Verayo said...

Worrying never stops. That's our job. It started the moment you found out you were with child. Prayers help a lot, i even looked up their guardian angels (depending on the day they were born) and ask them to keep my children safe all the time. I need to believe that there is someone or something out there that's also keeping an eye on my kids. It keeeps me at peace. =)

Ayrin Greyz said...

Hi Lea
I am more convinced more than ever that you truly are a great mom. Your display emotions, reflections and thoughts about your child mirrors what most moms feel towards their child(ren) ... we all want them to be healthy, safe and sound. Our everyday lives, the surroundings we live in, and yes, the programs we watch on TV and everything we get to read on newspapers and magazines could send our imagination running wild, and eventually worry to high heavens. You think you're hormonal? I doubt it very much. Believe me, you’re just being a mom to your little angel. We are destined to be their guardian – at all cost. Part of our task is to prepare our child(ren) to the “evils” lurking in the outside world. Moms are allowed to worry, make mistakes or go overboard. At the end of the day, we make sure our little angels feel safe, secure and protected in the confines of our homes. Always remember to tell your child how much you love her, let your sweet voice be the last sound she hears as she goes to sleep … for her, it's more than a lullaby ... it’s one of the best way to bond with your child. Take care!

nannette yatco said...

my son had a similar experience with the infant formula that was given to him when he was a baby so i changed brand and the allergy went away.