Ugh...

I'm so out of shape.  Two months on tour, and no time at the gym.  I busted out one of my workout DVDs, and could only finish HALF OF IT!!! Granted it's the Insanity workout, one that's guaranteed to make even the toughest cookie cry, but still.  I don't like doing anything halfway.

That's what happens when you eat your body weight in food more than you should.  Ugh.

I recently saw old pictures of myself (taken at age 28 or so), and couldn't believe it.  And believe it or not, I thought I was overweight at the time.  Objectively speaking though, I was in fighting shape, thanks to TaeBo everyday and performing in Miss Saigon 6 times a week.  More recently, while in Les Miz, I kept my weight down by walking to work daily and not eating too much because of having to sing in that goshdarned corset.

Life... that's what happened... and it manifested itself in my hips.

Again, ugh.

I really shouldn't be so down on myself... after all, a fitness program can always be restarted, regardless of how much time was spent away from it.  Thankfully there is a lot of incentive: plenty of opportunities in New York next year, and a return to musical theater (in a few of its many incarnations).  That should help me keep my eyes on the prize.

Motivation... must keep focused...

Late night thoughts...

- It's great having my little one all to myself without anyone to share her with for a few days...

- After the recent revelations of a close family member, I am absolutely incredibly grateful for how protective my mother was of me.  Given all that I've just been told, I'm surprised she wasn't even MORE protective!  Yes, I resented it at the time, but it all makes sense now.  Thanks, Mom.

- As long as there's Family Guy, King of the Hill, Robot Chicken, Metalocalypse, Looney Tunes, Scooby Doo, and just about every 70s cartoon known to man, there will always be something good on TV.

- Singing is heaven.

- Doing musical theater is heaven.

- I miss my friends from home.